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[24 Mar 2004|09:39am] |
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i haven't cried like i've been crying recently in a very long time. there is too much going on right now in this life. and to top it all off, im going to lose someone i love by the end of the week. you or her. her or you. i thought i was happy but rachel is not allowed happiness. im back to when i couldnt get out of bed. i have no will power anymore. im failing at everything i was once good at. i know too much for my own good. i guess this is the end.
This is the end.
This story's old
But it goes on and on
Until we disappear.
Calm me and let me taste
The salt that you breathed
While you were underneath.
I am the one who haunts your dreams
Of mountains sunk below the sea.
I spoke the words but never
Gave a thought to what they all could mean.
I know that this is what you want.
A funeral keeps both of us apart.
You know that you are not alone.
Need you like water in my lungs.
This is the end.
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[20 Mar 2004|01:34pm] |
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look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do, yeah they were all yellow.
your breaking the girl...
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[19 Mar 2004|02:57pm] |
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heehee. giggle.
Show me, show me, show me
How you do that trick
"The one that makes me scream," she said
"The one that makes me laugh," she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you, I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face, I kissed her neck
And dreamed of all the different ways
I had to make her glow
"Why are you so far away," she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you,
That I'm in love with you?"
You... soft and only
You... lost and lonely
You... strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water, you're just like a dream
Just like a dream
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
I find myself alone, alone, alone
Above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me.
You... soft and only
You... lost and lonely
You... just like heaven
im happy. efforts are being made.
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i have 12 piercings in my ears.
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[21 Oct 2003|08:36pm] |
your the lonely person! you seem to do everything
alone and don't ever look really happy! its ok
to be a alone sometimes but remember... SMILE!!
Which Anthony Kiedis picture are you?
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[21 Oct 2003|05:19pm] |
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complications of a master mind.
----- insanity it seems has got me by my soul to squeeze.
ride on
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[02 Jul 2003|07:03pm] |
my parents are arguing over "notions".
they crack me up
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[02 Jul 2003|01:18pm] |
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went to the beach yesterday with the mom and he dog. on the car ride up i had my window down and such and when i stepped out the car, i was burned!! but on only half of my body! so today, the burn is semi gone, but im tanner on my right half of my body.
ha.
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[28 Jun 2003|04:33pm] |
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i have fallen ill. so far today i sipped peppermint tea and watched "Breakfast at Tiffany's." i was supposedto , and wanted to, go to the pool with liz. i always get sick when we plan to something together. it makes me feel terribly guilty.
Hello Darkness my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was sleeping and the vision that was planted in my brain,
still remains within the Sounds of Silence
In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.
"Fools" said I,"You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence.
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[27 Jun 2003|03:20pm] |
"its a bittersweet symphony, this life."
back from camp. it was truley beautiful up there. i took many pictures of the scenery. i would love to take some photography courses this summer.
i really need a shower. my hair is still stiff for the lake.
i would just like to say that im very proud of mariel. she can be really stupid sometimes and she knows it, and im so incedebly excited that she is going to change. i dont think she knows how much i want what is best for her and how much i care.
right now im confused about emily (mariel told me what happened with mike) i personally think it was dumb of her, yet again, i dont know the whole story. it could make perfect sence. what ever.
highlight of the day : : : mariel snorting in her sleep and listening to simon and garfunkel on the drive home from camp and reunitig with my pup.
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[21 Jun 2003|07:22pm] |
today: i woke up at around 11.30. natalie koch was over with serena. they were loud. took a shower. cleaned room. got camp things together. went to ludington library. rented the silence of the lambs, best in show and thelma and luise. came home. watched the silence of the lambs. it was stupid. ate dinner. and now i find myself here, in front of the computer. my summer is going to be terribly boring. im trying to convince my parentals to take me to puerto rico, jamaca or mexico this summer because for two weeks it will be just the three of us. i thought i plannedmy whole get-away quite nicely (in all three of those chosen locations, my dear vati built summer homes for his clients to whom he is quite close to, so we would not need to pay for lodging!~!)
the weather will be nice during camp(!) but i will not be allowed to reveal more then 2 inches of skin while im up there. darn, no tan for me.
yada yada yada. im so incedibly boring........................................
peace y'all
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[20 Jun 2003|12:14pm] |
i hardly slept last night... they were coming to get me.
i just woke up...my braces cut this huge insision into my cheek. ow. i cant talk. mupherufpergergigwemoolufkeegum...haha (mupher-uf-perger-gigwemoo-lufkee-gum)
right. today i plan on cleaning my room... possibly re-arranging it aswell.
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[19 Jun 2003|11:09am] |
| sk8cult9 | | Magic Number | 19 | | Job | Sporting Great | | Personality | I'd Quite Like One | | Temperament | Angry - At Everthing | | Sexual | Just Say No | | Likely To Win | A Duel With Pistols | | Me - In A Word | Genius | | Colour | | | Brought to you by MemeJack |
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[18 Jun 2003|06:07pm] |
"u just seemed so sexy, and like how u talked oozed sex, just ur appearance and voice is just like sex...RACHEL OOZES SEX"
that made my day. the person i am quoting will remain anonymous. ANONYMOUS!
anyway. I'm really bored. and sad. call me
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[16 Jun 2003|04:59pm] |
finals were easy. today was stupid. therepy with mike was dumb. he was refering to my illegid boyfriend as "biff". it cracked me up. he said " lets say you want to got to the cabins with biff (me:hahahahahahahaha) but your parents think you are too young to go to the cabins with biff (me: aaaaahahahaha)but since biff is your boyfriend (me: pshhhhhaaaaahahha) you want to go. now, what is more important,what biff wants(me: ooohahhaha) or what your parents want?(serena: definitly biff. me:AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAGGGAGAGAHAGHAHGHAH!
anyway. i would greatly enjoy a get together with the following: emily and mariel.
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[07 Jun 2003|07:06pm] |
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"withdrawn loner" "pain is my companion" "dont belong in this world" "fear ending up alone"
im impressed with this accuracy.
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[07 Jun 2003|01:37pm] |
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i have that strange feeling that i have done something terribly wrong. hmm.
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[06 Jun 2003|05:14pm] |
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yet again, another loved one is escaping. mare is going to texas for the summer and will be going to school in hershey. those places are far away. im such a selfish bitch.
all my friends move away, physically and/or mentally. first it was pheobe, then margaret and melissa, then mariel and jess, then suzie, then elyse, then mariel again. the only person that has stayed, is emily. i realize now that i am taking her for granted.
she is such a wonderful person. not just for staying. but for everything she does. when i grow up i want to be emily beth watson. she is seriously the luckiest person i know. why? i really dont know why. you could ask me 1001 times and i still couldnt tell you. shes undiscribible. maybe its because i dont know her too well. so i fix this image of her from what i observe. or of what i knew.
i wish i were insane. i hate the mind i have. i hate the soul i have. my concious is annoying me. i wish i were totally free.
i wish i could write forever. to never speak a word again. the truth does't come out in speech, it comes out in writing.
so emily, i wish i could tell you all my secrets, my lies, my guilty pleasures, my losses, my gaines, my hopes and my regrets.
but i cant. for then i will lose you.
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[06 Jun 2003|02:20pm] |
went to synogauge today. the sophmores had their confirmation. my mother kept telling me that the boys were "scoping" me.i talked with dan afterwards. he is the best. asher said hello, what a gentelman. he has a beard again. its ugly. maury is as always gorgous. ellis grew his hair long a shaggy. he looks better but has the same stuck up attitde. none of them changed. i find that very sad. dressing the same,wearing their hair the same, yada yada, since they were in 7th grade. oh, ross and john got their ears peirced and lost weight.
everyone kept telling how grown up i looked, that my glasses make me look sofisticated. well, thank you, i say, you look grown up too.
when i got back home the dog had took a shit, a really wet one, all over the house and threw up. poor pup.
im really bored of the suburban life. its all kiss kiss hug awww i knew you when you were this big (seperating their thumb and index finger to about an inch apart, the only way they would know me then is if they were in a uterus with me)
i need a vacation. where its warm and things happen.
i really enjoy brownies. yum yum.
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